My very best friend

Today my friend, my very best friend. Gave me a card. A birthday card. With words in it that were so amazing, so thoughtful so true to heart with promise and love and dreams so big that neither of us can possibly reach them at this time. Dreams for me.
I love this girl more then anything. I love that's she loves for me. I love that she listens when I'm down. I love that she put some amazing words into a birthday card. She made me cry. They were tears of sadness. The were tears of dreams and tears of hope.
She could of written "happy birthday Tarz hope it was a good day."
But she didn't... Love your guts chick... More then you know.

SO Random

I haven't been around for a bit lately and when I said to my husband... 

"I'm a bit stuck, what do you think I should blog about, everybody writes about all these awesome things and I'm at a bit of a loss with it all... perhaps I should get out more... "

Lol long winded request of information wasn't it?
I do that.

He just stared and said...

"Well its obvious isn't it... write about how awesome macawesome I am..."

hrrrrm hrrrrm

TICKETS PLEASE!

{image}

But you know what...
He IS awesome, 

Ive been so not with 'IT' whatever it is this past week and he has been there every step of the way.
Stepping in when I needed him around the home or with our son.

Giving me lots of extra BIG squishy hugs when I had tears.

AND {this is the best bit}

When our son goes to bed and its time for relax mode he has kept me thinking, busy and talking so that I dont get to lost in my thoughts.

Just what I needed.

Thank you husby be for being the awesome person that you are and putting up with me...

What would you like to see on the blog?

Do YOU have any tips for a new blogger who is trying to find her feet in the blogesphere?
Does your Husband/Partner pick you up when you are feeling low?

Would love to hear from you x

Flashback Friday

I like the idea of Flashback Friday,

I just have to remember to do it... lol


So anyways, lets flashback to the moment I became a Wife.

Have a great day x

{Keeping it real} WHERE am I?

Where am I you ask?

 Well I'm here...

It's crazy how being crazy busy for a couple of days can really get me behind in this room.

Sigh.

So if you dont here from me in a couple of hours send a search party, but dont look to hard Ill probably be asleep on top.

Have a great day guys x

Sweet start to the day...

I bake often...

But not religiously.

I haven't bake for a while according to the Husband and a while would be about a week.

I have this go to recipe that I got from the Stay At Home Mum's Website if you haven't been there to have a squiz I totally recommend having a look. They have helped us out personally with lots of meals and budgeting tips... I digress...

SO my go to recipe is what they call 120 Biscuits for less than $5

We just call them biccies.

I stay true to the recipe which is,

500gms of butter

1 Can of condensed milk

5 Cups of SR flour
1 Cup of Sugar

Cream the butter and sugar then mix in the rest...
simple fast and easy just the way I like it.

Any way this morning, there was yet another comment from the Husband who had is head so far in the pantry that all I could see was his fine bum sticking out this vision still cracks me up cos its like he was being swallowed whole! So from the muffling surrounds of flour, sugar, pasta and the like. I heard WHAT should I take for snacks today?

Right thats it get outta the way and before I knew it I was creaming butter and sugar before I could say would you like some biscuits DEAR? through gritted teeth of course!

So with my littlest helper in tow I was tripping over lunch boxes, toasters and little fingers pinching the creamed butter but I survived.

The bit I love most about this recipe is that it can be frozen and it defrosts and cooks beautifully after being frozen unlike some disasters

Im the best iphoneographer EVER!

  So the quantity above makes about six weeks of biscuits which is great for this budget wielding Mumma.

By 8 o'clock this morning I had a dozen piping hot yummyness cooling on the kitchen bench. To bad hubby has already gone to work...

What a sweet start to the day.

Have a great day peeps x

Oh before I go I add Cadbury cooking chocolate, Glace' cherries and roughly chopped unsalted peanuts to the mixture before freezing and cooking.

I TOTALLY recommend giving that combo a go... I is AMAZING!

Not sponsored by anyone other then myself.

What is your go to recipe?
Do you loose your husband in the pantry or am I the only one?

This week...{C&T est' 02}

This week my now Husband and I have been together for 10 years!

HOLY CHEESEBALLS BATMAN!
TEN!

So much has happened with this man.

We met in year 7 we were 13.

We became friends.

It was always awkward.
But what part of high school isn't.

We were VERY different.

I grew up in a 'city' town and moved to a coastal village with my family when I was due to start high school.

He lived on a farm an hour away from my coastal village.

I rode bikes, ATV's and helped my dad with his small business every weekend and on holidays.

He had paddock bombs, motor bikes, tractors, animals and worked at a market garden when they needed him and at the local tractor mechanics each Saturday.
He liked that I could ride an ATV and had an understanding of car engines.
I liked the fact that he would talk to me like a normal person and not dumb down any part of knowledge that he knew and I didn't unless I asked.
Also the size of his shoulders and arms swoon
He dated everyone I knew.

I didn't.

He smoked

I didn't.
He was aloud to party

I wasn't.

We were also VERY much the same

We have a love for music

We both play an instrument

We share our love for cars.
We had already been friends for 5 years.

Our common ground was school.

He sent a text while I was working one night at a formal function at the school.

I need to talk to you about something important on Monday.

Kinda obvious huh?

My then REALLY good friend knew what was going on.
Her reaction also gave it away.

I told him that I was at work but he could call me when I got off.

He called.

The conversation was weird.

He ended up asking me out.

I EVENTUALLY said yes. lol.

We did our deb together. We were already deb partners.

He insisted on kissing me alllll the time. 

I don't do Public Displays Of Affection well
Year 12 started
We turned 18
We got our licenses 
I got VERY sick

I got better.

High school finished and he packed up and left for Uni in Central Victoria.
Some three hour drive away.

That was weird. 

Distance relationships are very hard

We almost didn't make it
My mum survived breast cancer and went into remission. 

I transferred my Tafe course.

I moved to Bendigo.

It was good.

I was at school full time and worked part time at a major craft store.

He was at school full time and worked part time at a powder coating place.

He liked clubbing and partying.

I didn't.
I went because he wanted me to. 

I despise crowds and the dark. Clubbing isn't really for me.

I was home sick.

I bought a dog. Her name is Tessah. 

She helped

Cash bought a car, it was a wreck. 

He fixed it and rebuilt it.

He loved it.

I loved it.
He wouldn't let me drive it.

I made friends.

Some of them are still my friends.

One of them I would call my best friend.

I miss her.

I moved back home, by myself.

I had a job lined up.

Cash got a job, he moved back home.

We lived with my folks till we got some money behind us to buy our first home.

We turned 21. We are four weeks apart.

I bought another dog. His name is Duke.

I bought a car.

I went to Europe.
He didn't

We bought our first home

His Favorite uncle died in the settlement period. That was a hard time.

We moved in

We got engaged.
I was making lunch.
Hes not really romantic but that's why I like him

We lost a baby.

We cried.

Our love changed

We contemplated getting married.
It didn't happen.

I lost another baby. More tears. Felt like I was failing a bit.

Our love changed again.

I left my job.

That was scary

I started a new job.
We needed to think about something else.

We booked our wedding reception for the middle of June the following year.

My best friend got married. It was beautiful.

LOVE that we are cracking up, over what I dont know but it must of been good.

We were both in the wedding party and I was honored to be her maid of honor.

I was pregnant and didn't know

The ultra sound tech said I was due the middle of June the following year.
The exact same day as the wedding.

I laughed.

People were shocked.

I wouldn't have changed a thing.
My mum's remission time finished win

My belly grew.

Look at my sexy bod-day!

Our love changed.

I changed the wedding date.

The wedding planner at the venue was fabulous.
She laughed with me

I had a wedding to plan

People tried to help because I was pregnant by taking over.

I stopped them from taking over.

I was pregnant not invalid

I had a car accident

We were fine.

The car not so much

It was fixed.

Baby was born

Mumma, Pappa & Baby Bear.

Our love changed a lot.

We got married ten weeks later.

It was fabulous.

The baby slept for most of the day.

We went on a small driving holiday for our honeymoon.
We made some changes to the house.
My best friend had her first baby 2 days before my baby turned one.

The baby turned one and so did our marriage.

I lost another baby. This is getting hard now.
I said goodbye to some one who was a friend.
Our love changed again.

We went on our first family holiday together.
That was so much fun.
We made more changes to the house.

The baby turned two and so did our marriage.

I lost another baby. sigh.
Friendships changed and grew stronger.
Our love changed again but I truly think its stronger then ever before.
We are now planning a major family holiday.
We are also planning on trying to extend our family again.
The anticipation of what could be is exciting
But as I said to a couple who are some great friends of ours the other day.
Its what could happen scares me away from going through the whole process again.
We have each other.

Ten years on...

Our love has changed more times then I can count.

I wouldn't have changed a thing

I love you Cash.

Mothers Day

It has been GREAT!

I love this photo. It really sums up our day. 

It was taken just after Master R unwrapped my gifts.

I dont care how blurry it is I dont care that we look half asleep.
I LOVE IT!

How was yours?